Kneeling silently
Arms resting palms up on her knees.
Hair caressing her cheeks,
It is for Him she awaits.
Standing tall, walking proud,
His power surrounding Him
His eyes deep and captivating
It is for her He has come.
She reaches up and touches her neck,
Feeling His collar around it.
Knowing, feeling
She knows she is owned.
He enters the room,
Sees what is His
Moves toward her,
Places a hand on the back of her head
Breathless, heart racing
She leans against his leg
She is where she belongs
At His side.
He leans down and whispers,
'You are mine'
softly he kisses her lips,
before he takes her hair into his hand.
Ga
Tattered & Torn
A lone black butterfly,
In a world of yellow and orange,
Her beautiful wings tattered and torn,
The marks of her life for all to see.
Each rip a sign of things she has weathered,
A small crease for all the hurt of love,
Each pain making it deeper,
harder to straighten, harder to fly.
A rip for the anger, the hurt
She can't seem to let go.
At the top of her right wing,
A hole void of beauty,
Empty of happiness,
Formed by the inner pain
she has been through.
Be gentle with her for
She isn't as strong as she looks.
Hold her tightly but don't crush her.
Comfort her when she feels the marks of her life,
There's a storm brewing,
The skies are becoming dark,
angered, threatening.
Clouds are building, billowing,
growing in strength.
The first sounds of thunder crash,
loudly, violently, omnipotent.
Lightening rips through the sky,
fiercely, scathing.
Harsh gusts of wind blow,
unforgiving, relentless.
Rain begins crashing to the ground,
unfeeling, releasing.
The intensity heightens;
the fury, the anger,
crash down.
Every emotion fathomable,
unleashed, exposed.
Each rain drop stabs into
the soil, unceasingly,
mutilating, scarring.
The wrath fully revealed,
passionate, assaulting.
As sudden as it formed
the storm b
She looked at me as to say don't go, but then told me I should,
This I never really understood.
I wanted to hold her and feel her pain,
But I stood there trying to refrain.
I looked back as she closed the door trying not to cry out,
What was said was just that and that I didn't belong was without a doubt.
So I walked down the street that night and went to a place that only few know ,
I sat on our rock and watched the moon glow.
I kept seeing her face as I sat there tears streaming down my face,
The bond I shared with her I knew I wouldn't replace.
I got up and walked back home that night,
Figured I'd give it one more shot perhap
That Day
I wake up and I'm already late
Nothing seems to go right in my life
I grab my things and rush to class
the door shuts as I make it to the top of the stairs
late again and no excuses
feel like turning around and leaving
I don't fit here
no one wants me here
all alone in the crowded hallways
feeling like I missed my bus before I even got a chance to find out which one it was
In the car I'm driving
thinking about that day
the day that everything seemed to go away
I use to fit but now I wander alone
driving for what seems like an eternity
maybe I missed my calling
or maybe its just meant to be this way
maybe I'm the
His Story
by: Nicole Smith
Feb. 23, 2003
I talked to him again
you want his story, where do I begin?
He is alone and his heart is shattered
She acted as though he never really mattered.
He was the strong one
but not anymore, what has she done?
As he told his story tears fell across his cheek
I held him for he had grown weak.
He wept for what seemed like forever
Didn't she once promise hurt and pain never?
As he spoke his voice trembled
Years of their marriage recalled as he remembered.
I held him as he cried
Does she realize she caused a part of him to die?
He finished as the last tear fell from his face
His eyes darted as
Fleeting thoughts, random doubts, sadness feels my mind…..wondering where you are and who you are with…if its me you are thinking of or if someone else is on your mind….can't earse the thought of you out of my mind…you are in my head for good and all I think of is where you are and who you are with and if its me your thinking of or is there someone else on your mind. Sitting alone in a dark room waiting for the sound of your voice the words they never come….and I'm left sitting here wondering where you are and who you are with….if its me you are thinking of or is there someone else that is in your dreams. I close my eyes to sleep and I am fa
Do not take
what I freely would give
Do not judge
when I first try to live
Do not ask
if afraid of the truth
Do not question
if the answer is moot
I make some mistakes
but the choices are pure
I sometimes push back
when I want others near
I am trying my best
though it seems like I'm not
And my truth is my own
folded wings in my box
This path would be hard
or so I was told
And that is my truth
but I still must be bold
I must stand and must walk
to one day learn to fly
But none of that happens
when I do not try
And although I try
I sometimes land on my face
But the message is then
Tuesday evening my mom had what my grandma referred to as an 'episode'. My grandpa took her to the er at the hospital in my home town. The doc that saw her said her blood pressure was high (off the chart high), and that she was diabetic (without doing a chalk test, or any other type of test). He even did a chest xray and included in the chart 'chest xray shows no sign of stroke. (now I may not be a doctor, but damn well that strokes do not occur in one's chest!)
He made her an appointment with our family doctor, Dr. Derrick and sent her home from the er, all the while she's complaining with slurred speech about her arm not being able to move
Saturday I spent the day catching up on chores, getting things in order for the next couple of days, and taking a much-needed break for some personal time. I met boyscout for coffee at caribou and we played on the laptops for a while, then I went with him for lotto in SC, and made a run to Sadu's with him. Then Sir met up with us, and we talked for a while. Then Sir and I went to get lunch and to spend the afternoon/evening together, the first one we'd had time to do so since the stroke my mom had. We even got in a bit of a session which helped me relax a good bit and get some what of a good night's sleep.
Sunday morning we got up early and
I will be posting several pictures from our last trip to my home town, and to some of the surrounding areas. Stay tuned! The first of the pics are posting today, more to follow in the days to come!